So I have been on this clear liquid diet for a little over a week now. And since Thanksgiving is tomorrow, I have never felt so sad that I will not be able to partake in it, at all. I honestly do not even want to be out in the dining room with my family if all I can do is watch them eat food that smells/looks/tastes so good.
*I KNOWWW* that I need to recover before I can consume real food.
*I KNOWWW* that health is most important.
*I KNOWWW* that I will be able to eat again in the future.
But the truth is, no one understands how hard it really is. Everyone says “just drink your shake,” “you better not eat, Lauren,” “youre going to get skinny,” “yum chocolate shake smells good!” TRY EATING IT FOR EVERY MEAL. EVERY DAY.
Every day is such a sad struggle… Trying to find the good in each day but being bedridden doesn’t really bring much excitement either.